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Life after Loria
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On September 9, 2001, my life was changed forever. The
horrible memory will never leave my consciousness.
I held my daughter’s lifeless body and told her how much I
loved her. I begged her to live. I was in shock. At that moment, it never
occurred to me that I was asking her to do something that she so obviously
didn’t want to do.
I remained in shock at the memorial service, but I do
remember thinking "Loria had lots of friends." And she did … not only friends,
but also peers that respected her and were proud to know her. I have saved every
card and letter received, which I re-read now when I yearn for comfort.
I will seize this opportunity now to offer a sincere "Thank
You" to everyone who sent a card, letter, or flowers. If you phoned, visited,
or brought food, "Thank You." You were a savior.
But unfortunately, as time passes, friends (and even some
family) tend to forget, while the horrendous pain never subsides. I long to
hear someone call me and say, "I was thinking about Loria today." But
unfortunately, very few people do.
I cannot begin to express the grief associated with the death
of a child. It is overwhelming and affects everything that I feel, say and do. I
cannot imagine anything worse. It is truly the ultimate tragedy.
My parents were my past and my husband is my present. Loria
was half of my future.
For me, her death was the loss of the opportunity to see her
accept the college diploma that she worked so hard for and deserved. She was in
her final semester of the Industrial Engineering program at North Carolina State
University and on schedule to graduate in December 2001. She will never have the
opportunity to be successful in that great job that I’m certain she would have
landed after graduation.
The faculty and staff at NCSU were very supportive of
our family since Loria’s death. For the first time in their history, the
school's engineering department voted unanimously for recommendation and with
approval from the school, her diploma was
awarded to her posthumously. As her family, we were invited to the
ceremony and her diploma was presented to us in her honor. It was such a
heart-warming experience, and I will never forget the kind words spoken that
day.
I will never get to plan ‘Loria’s wedding day’. She would
have been a beautiful bride and would have made some man very happy.
Her sister's children will never have the pleasure of knowing
their Aunt Loria.
I can only have dreams about grandchildren that will never
exist. There may be no granddaughters with her trademark curls. She would have
been a wonderful mother.
I wake up each morning and think about Loria. Throughout my
torturous day, I think about Loria and the pain continues to suffocate me. I
find myself struggling to breathe. I attempt to sleep at night and I think about
Loria. The realistic nightmare of watching her eyes re-open in death will stay
with me forever.
Words can never convey how much I love
and miss my beautiful daughter. With this website in her honor, I hope
that no one will ever forget that she ...
L-I-V-E-D!
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"In Memory of Loria" graphic
created by and a much-appreciated gift from Lisa at
Kukurugya Lane.
"Some People Dream of
Angels" a much-appreciated gift from
Mary at
Lil' Doll Shoppe.
To adopt this beautiful creation in memory of your lost loved one visit the
In Loving Memory of Loria Adoption Shoppe.
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